It's been quite awhile since I've sat down to make a post. I've thought about it a lot, but if I'm being honest, it's been daunting. So I'm hoping by just taking some time to write a short little post, it'll help me move forward.
A big reason why I've stepped away is due to grief and mourning. I've experienced a loss in my family recently. At this time, I don't really want to share about it publicly. But I felt wrong about moving forward without at least acknowledging that there was something significant that happened in my life.
That said, I've since been really trying to take the time to go and do the things that make me happy and be with the people that I love. I feel very blessed to have such an incredible community of friends and family around me. Whether it's a brunch date, a road trip, or a shoulder to cry on, I'm grateful for those that I have to turn to.
Over these past few months, I've been reminded in the most in-your-face way as possible that life comes with many unexpected things, good and bad. Things can change in a flash. And it's important we take the time to recognize and embrace the changes, emotions, events as they come. A close friend of mine gave me a great piece of advice a few months ago. She told me not to fight the sadness or "negative" emotions. Try to think of it as weather changing. And just go with it the same as you would with the changing weather.
That piece of advice has helped me so much through some of the hardest days. There's been a lot of spontaneous crying that I've done. All my life I've been a very sensitive and emotional person. It doesn't take much for me to break down. And for a long time as a young person, I felt ashamed by it. But the older I get, the more accepting I have become of it and the more I embrace it. It's simply a part of who I am. And I love that I'm a sensitive person. It's far better than being cold and emotionless. And so rather than fight the tears at work, I just explained to my coworkers that I'll likely be spontaneously crying a lot for awhile and to simply just deal with it. And nearly all of my coworkers at some point saw me break down crying over the course of a few weeks.
The teary days are far more rare now. And I've been really wanting to get back to plotting some blog posts and pouring myself into my articles and writing. But I felt that not acknowledging that something happened would be wrong. And now I feel more okay with moving forward and figuring out what to write about next.
Thank you for being patient while I stepped away from writing to take care of yourself. And I hope you all know that during the good and the bad, always make sure to take time to take care of yourself. Make sure you're taken care of first. It's the whole cliche "put on your own oxygen mask first" concept. But it's something that should not be taken for granted. Remember to check in with yourself often and make sure that you take care of yourself.